letting go


A Mercy Case

dear God

i am so tired

the world’s woes pile up in my heart

which cracks and cracks


the idea that i have a heart

seems like a delusion


there is an essence of who i am

somewhere deep below

that i can only reach

if i let You wash away everything

other than it

names like al-Naqi


and others

are “names along with other names”

but they speak to me of essences

beyond the quark

transcendent yet historical links in a chain

back to the burial of Your Prophet in 632 AD / 10 AH

send him and his family blessings and peace!

back to You beyond time

but also

traveling companions for 2017 AD / 1439 AH

whispering to me

that one day

every tear will make sense

but also

forms encasing meanings

each an ocean

from which every time i take a sip


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Reason and Revelation – A Snippet

Men are varied in their grasp of perfections, in their acquisition of knowledge, and in their possession of virtues. Some are free from the need of any helper (mustaghnin ‘an mu’ãwin) by virtue of their strength of spirit, the perfection of the comprehension and the fineness of their talent to achieve higher things, (al-ittil bi’l-umr al-aliyya). Some are totally incapable of this. Some take up a medial position, ranging nearer or farther from the two extremes. The usefulness of the prophet lies in his making perfect the deficiencies [in comprehension] in accord with the various abIlities.

-A translation of a commentary of ‘Allamah Hilli’s on al-Tusi’s al-Tajrid, a Muslim text of Theology, found in Norman Calder’s Ph.D Thesis

ʿĪd al-Aḍḥā 2014 Khuṭbah Summary, Notes, and Reflections


ʿĪd al-Aḍḥā 2014 Khuṭbah Summary, Notes, and Reflections

Khuṭbah by Shaykh Amir Mukhtar Faezi | Baitul ʿIlm

This is not a transcript – many of the words are transcribed, much is paraphrased, some reflections and content are inserted by me. Qurʾānic quotes and footnotes come from ʿAlī Qulī Qarāʾī’s translation

First Khuṭbah

2:155. We will surely test you with a measure of fear and hunger and a loss of wealth, lives, and fruits; and give good news to the patient

156.—those who, when an affliction visits them, say, ‘Indeed we belong to Allah, and to Him do we indeed return.’

157. It is they who receive the blessings of their Lord and [His] mercy, and it is they who are the [rightly] guided.

Welcome to the inner circle of lovers of the Divine; God tests those who believe in him – for the truthful, the friends of God, the…

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“may my life be sacrificed for those eyes”

Ramadan reflections from a seeking soul

A Mercy Case


النظر إلى علي عبادة

“Looking at ‘Ali is worship.” (al-Mustadrak)

It is the night of the 19th of the month of Ramadan, a blessed night.

The shaykh had us collectively ask God for forgiveness, and my heart burned as I thought of how little I follow the example of Imam ‘Ali b. Abi Talib, upon him peace. Afterward, I read my poem “The Eyes of Ali” to all those gathered. We heard stories of the generosity of the Commander of the Faithful. How he served a widow in need and showed compassion to her orphans. How he has been called “The Voice of Human Justice” even by those who are not Muslim. And how he walked the streets of Kufa in the hot sun looking for people to feed.

I was struck by that story, for it was said that he looked to the heavens and proclaimed, “God…

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Accosting Mother Earth

Perennial Quest

Ecology and Environmental Justice are always on my mind. I ran across this article today. The damage is overwhelming; it fatigues the heart.

38 million pieces of plastic waste found on uninhabited South Pacific island


“Have we forgotten our future?
Earth Mother, life giver, we can’t live without her
So foolish, men who say they don’t care
They’ll be gone anyway
Think of our little ones,
for whom the world has just begun…”

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The Backdrop – A Brief Autobiography | 2007-2017

Perennial Quest

March 20, 2017 1:30pm | River City Roasters Coffee Shop in Wheaton, IL

The past ten years have been incredibly important in my life journey. It’s hard to even conceive how productive these years have been in terms of wayfaring; it’s even harder to explain how difficult these years have been—but, as the aphorism goes

  A smooth sea never made for skilled sailors

A little over a decade ago I made the most defining decision of my life, to tread the path of Knowledge, Devotion, and Virtue through the prism of the prophetic teachings of Islām. My own wrangling with the validity of truth and knowing started about two years prior to that decision; a long spiritual brooding set in that was finally resolved through this decision, only to create an even deeper period of positive contemplation that, likely, has no end.

This sets the stage for this blog-project.

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